Aamukham

Ithoramukhamennu parayam.....
Sharikkum paranjal aamukhamalla... poomukham ennu parayam..
Athe poomukham thanne.....
Njan varachukootan pokunna.... varnangalilum varakalilum theerthedukkan pokunna
oru kochu kudilinte (allenkil kottaramennu thanne parayam... enthinu kurakkanam..... )
alla kottarathinte poomukham.......
Ithoru chillu kottaram poleyakanam ennenikkundu.....
Athrakku sutharyatha venamennu nirbandhavumundu.......
Ithu paniyuvan njan kandethunna kochu kochu vasthukkal sutharyamayathundavum atharyamayathundavum athu pole ardhatharyamayathum undavum......
Oru athishayamundavam ivide ethunnavarkku... inganeyokkeyanu nirmikkunnathenkil
chillukottaramengane sutharyamavumennu.....
Avideyanu njan vyathysthanakunnathu.... Njan parayunnu ithu sutharyam thanneyavum.......
Marichu thudangiyittillatha ente indriyangal orumichu chernnu oru aaramindriyamayi pravarthichu kondu thanneyanu parayunnathu........
Ithu sutharyamavum.....
Nirmana vasthukkale kurichu parayam..... Ormavachu thudangiyappol muthal kittiyathum kothichittu kittathe poyathumaya kalippattangal.... (innum enikkava kouthukam niranja kothiyayi nilkunnathu agrahichappol kittanjathu kondavam), oppu kadalasu, mazhi thandu,
kanyakumari pencilukal, ente alamarayil ipozhum sookshikkunna ethrayo nalukal pazhakkamulla theliyunnathum theliyathathumaya, mazhi niranjathum ozhinjathumaya penakal, priyappettavar sammanicha, oru kalakhattathile adwanathinte othiri ere chilavazhichu vangi koottiya, ennal enne epozho grasicha papathe poleyo, kulakkadavile kannunthiya paithrukangal kalathinoppam mayathe thaniyavarthanamayi pirannu enikku shapathinte kuda choodi ninnu enne karnnu thinnunnathu pole chithalarichathum athil ninnum njan veendeduthathumaya pusthakangal, manchadi, mayil peeli, kunnimanikal, valappottukal, chippi thundukal, vellaram kallukal, pavizhaputtu, appooppan thadi, arayaalinte ila, krishna thulasiyum rama thulasiyum, sugandha raja ennariyappedunna parijatham rajamalli,thudangiya velutha pookkal, chempakavum paalappoovum, pinne ampalangalil aniyathiyude thalappolivinu kittiya malli kozhunthu, vattu mootha sayahnangalil thediyalanja thaazhapoovum, kaithayum, ettan kootukaril oralude gopikakku vendi paricheduthu thudangi oduvil ente ishtakoodilekku chekkeriya neelayum vellayum nirathilulla shankhu pushpangal, daivathe pole karuthi snehicha kootukaar,ente ettan kootukaranmar, ente vattukalkku kootuninna velutha kadalasukalum violet mashi niracha penayum, najn othiri prarthikkunna poojikkunna soap calendarile daivangal, njan marichu nakshathramakumpol prasidheekarikkum ennu ente kootukaran urappu paranja ente vattukal niranja ente shariyudeyum thettinteyum thelivukal niracha ente diarykal, pinne ente sneham pole, ente pranayam pole, njan chorinja, innalekalilum innukalilum okkeyayi njan arinjo ariyatheyo choriyicha kannu neeru pole parishudhamayaa, enikkarivu vachathu muthal njan karyumpol enikkoppam karanja ente priyappetta mazha.......
Ithokkeyanu ee chillu kottarathinte nirmana vasthukkal.....
Ivayoronnine kurichum varum samayangalil njan kochu kochu vakkukaliloodeyenkilum
parayam.... Ningalum snehikkum ithineyokke.
Appo njan parayatte....
"This glass house.... it has everything in it, all colours of prides and pains, rhythm of rain and heart beats, affection and care of lullaby and brotherhood, pebbles of sacred love and bundle of cheating, clear vision and blindness, deafness and clear hearing, dome silence and loudness of spitting words, and so and so on..........
So I must say............
It's an introduction to my past.... An explanation to my present, & a look at my future.....
My Future.... the laughing stock to me, even my birth star may be wondering how its gona end,
and I believe i m approaching that comrade who is awaiting me in some nearby curves, and i take all these nature and its immortal power to witness my future........."

Kottaram paniyunnathinu munne onnu koodi paranjotte......
Ee kottarathil njan vereyum chilathu koodi cherkkanundu.....
Ente chila priya kootukar ennodu parnja avarude jeevitham.... athum enikku parayanamennu thonnunnu.... karanam avideyum enikku parayanayi chilathundavum...... so angane onnu randu perkku parayanundayirunnathu koodi njan paranjekkum ivide..... karanam athum jeevithathinte sharikalum thettukalumanu..... etho valya sharikal valeduthapol jeevanattu poya kochu kochu sharikalude pakarthiyezhuthu.......

Innu 2009, June 26.
Ente valya sharikalude aakasha gopurathinu njan thee koluthi , agni kondu mattoru aaksha gopuram theerthu, aaralum ashudhamakan aakatha agniye sakshiyakki, athile kanaline karlileduthu kedathe vachu entethaya sharikal venda , pakaram daivathinte sharikal shikshayude valedukkattennu theerumanichu urappichu, enni thudangiya divasathinte avasana akkathilekkethum vare shapa moksham thedi, sheshikunna nanmaye punyamakki thalichu hridayathe urukki theerthamakki kaikkumpilileduthu, muttukuthi prarthichu pithrukkalkku tharpanam nadathi kaikal kannu neerukondu kazhuki shudhi varuthi, chithayilekku nadakkumpol, agnikku shudhivaruthan aathmaviloru azhukkumundavillennu urappichu, enne snehikkunna, njan snehicha, ellavarkkum oru neram pokinayi njan ente vattukalude vathilukal ivide thurakkunnu...... ezhuthumpol ellam entethayi ezhuthiyillenkil
enikoru sukhamilla... athu kondu kadhapathram kalpikkanavathidathokke njan ellam entethayi thanne ezhuthum....... Athanu athinte oru sukham... athinte shariyum.

"Ente kinavukaleyum dhukhangaleyum pinne ee enne thanneyum anuvida thettathe pakutheedutha karangalkkonnum thanne ente manasinte mounathilekku, dhukhanalude irulilekku orittu santhwanam prakashippikkan aayilla...... Oduvil aarudeyo prarthanayudeyo
kshayikkatha sukruthathinteyo punyam pole manasinte aazhangalilekku oru mazha pole vanniraranigya oru pavam devasparshathine mohippichu kadannu kalanja kattalanayi njan mari Aswathamavinu thulyamoru chiranjeeviyakanamenikkenna shapamokshamillatha shapavumirannu athinayillenkil, maranam thannanugrahichu mythukalil mathram kettu parichayamulla narakathilekku yathrayakkanam ennu 5 thiriyitta nilavilakkinu munnil kai neetti pidichu prarthichu, shikshakkoduvil aa devasparshathinte vayariloru unniyayi piraviyeduppichu valicherinjudacha snehavum lalanayum veendum anubhavikkan anuvadhikkanamennum karalil ninnum kanniloode chorthiyerinja kannu neerinu adutha janmathil makanayi pirannu mappu chodichu shapamoksham nedan idavaruthanennum prarthichu vithumpunna vathayanangal thurannu njan purathekkirangil pinnilekku nadakkunnu"........................

Ente oru ammakkili paranja pole, "Snehikkappedatha sneham maranathe snehikkkuunna pole....." Snehichu snehichu oduvil hridayam paricherinju swasam mutttichu kollunna snehavum maranathe thanne snehikkum ennariyumpol, aa maranam chuvanna pookalumayi sneham panku vakkuavanayethunnundavum.......! Jeevichirikkunnathile nanakkedukondu marikkunnavar ethra perundakum...... allenkil maranathe pranayichu marichavar ethra perakum........ hehehe inganeyokke parayan njanara......? Namukku kalathilekku kannu nattirikkam.......... Aa kalamoru kanakku pusthakathil chuvanna mazhikondu oru valayamittu adayalam varakkum varem njanumundu ningalkkoppam.... kathirikkaan... kadhaparayan....
Kaanan.... pottichirikkan.... attahasikkan..... athu vare ee vazhiyampalathilethunnavarkku
kochu vaakukalud maduppikkatha sambharam nalkaan..... aarumariyathe ithiri karayaan......
Oduvil onnum sakshiyakkathe krishnamangalathile paramparyamanusarichu pachamavukalkku theepidipichoru chenthengayi kulachu nilkan..........................

...............................Ivide poomukathinte vathilakkumpol.... aamughathinu samapthiyayi...............